*******This entry was written by Josh. :)*******
I received and email yesterday that will soon change our lives forever. I found out that I will be starting the nursing program at SLCC in Aug. 2009. It will have been 2 1/2 years since I've been in school when I start, and the emotions that I have right now are mixed.
I'm excited to be starting the program earlier than expected, but given our current financial situation, I'm scared out of my mind that we won't be able to find a way to pay for it. Pell Grants are an option but I got a letter my last pre-req. semester that said I had almost reached the limit that they would pay for. We'll see how that goes. Luckily we have 8 months to save up for it.
I'm both gitty and terrified that will be going back to school. I greatly miss the constant learning and progression into new knowledge, but I have really enjoyed spending time with my family that I've never had before. This 2 years will undoubtedly be the hardest we have endured yet.
Nursing school (I've heard) is hard enough as it is... throwing on full time work and quality family time will make it a little more challenging.
As I was cradling Babyboy in my arms about to lay him in his bed last night, it occurred to me that he will be 5 yrs old when I am done with the program. He will be the same age as Biggirl is now. About to start kindergarten. Talking in complete sentences with words like "apparently" and "obviously" (as Tenderheart does now). Using logic to determine what is right and what is wrong. He will no longer be a "Baby"boy.
I always wanted to be done with school by the time I started having kids... I find it fascinating that Heavenly Father, in all his wisdom, doesn't really care what we want or when we want it. I have found that He will giveth and taketh away as He desires. The only thing we have much control over is whether or not we understand that it isn't really up to us. He will give it to us when He sees that we are ready.
Hmm... maybe there really is something to this blogging thing. I mean after all, that last paragraph helped me realize that the entire first half of my post was meaningless. In that apparently I have nothing to worry about because my Father knows that our family is ready. Apparently ;-)